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A Sense of Accomplishment

Posted on by James C. Struck

I start way more things than I finish.

I think that’s pretty common for writers.  We get the idea, the great and glowing thing in our heads, and we dash off to our computer (or in my case, my notebook) and get to work, scribbling or tapping away.  Sometimes the idea just dries up and we stop.  Sometimes we keep going for a while and then we get another idea and drop the first one.  Sometimes we keep at it but our doubts and insecurities and lives and busyness and procrastination and what have you just get in the way.

But sometimes, just sometimes, none of this happens.

I’ve just today finished the longest thing I’ve ever written.  It took me 13 months (yeah, no NaNoWriMo for Jimmy) to write 157 pages of longhand YA modern fantasy novel.  It’s the first time I’ve ever finished anything close to this length that was fiction; most of my longer stuff is philosophical ramblings.  The previous story record was about 50 pages and that was in 2003.  And the best part is that I’m not done.  The story, assuming I finish it, is a trilogy.

So why am I bothering to document this in Cyberspace, and why do I think anyone else will give a crap about it?

We live in a society where accomplishment is measured in material things.  Success is weighed in square footage of house, names on clothing tags, shininess of car.  We rarely allow ourselves, or perhaps we are rarely allowed, to feel accomplishment for its own sake, to just feel good about “hey, I did that”.  It has to be “okay, you did that, now what will you do with it?”  Everything has to be a product.

Yet real accomplishment has nothing to do with that.  Our sense of worth and worthiness is garnered from being something, not having something.  Think of the times you really felt good about yourself.  Did it have anything to do with some material acquisition, or did it come from within?  Neale Donald Walsch once wrote that part of the reason our society is so unhappy is because we have what he calls the “be/do/have paradigm” upside down.  We think that, in order to be something, happy for instance, we have to have something first, like more money.  This having will allow us to do things (take a trip, buy a house, pay a bill) which will then allow us to be what we want (happy).  He says that we have this backwards.  We instead should decide what we want to be, then do things that move us towards that.  This will then create things to have that work with the doing and being.

Today I have finished my book.  I did this because I chose to be a writer and to stick to it, no matter what.  This led me to do something, which was to make time to write every day, even if it was just a few minutes to write a few words.  This made it possible for me to have a finished book, and a great sense of accomplishment because of it.

Mr. Walsch might be onto something. 🙂

What It’s Like To Be A Writer

Posted on by James C. Struck

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Being a writer is unlike any other creative profession, and I know this because I’ve tried quite a few. I’ve been a performing musician since I was a kid, and trust me, writing is completely different than music or theatre or just about anything else I’ve ever tried. Why? Because writers are completely nuts. Let me give you a few examples.

We have people living in our heads, and they can be little assholes.

Writing can be a very inconvenient creative outlet, mostly because the characters that we dream up (or perhaps find, but that’s a different blog post) really are little people in our heads. And just like real people, fictional people can be demanding. They want attention, have cranky days, act impulsively and thoughtlessly, and sometimes want to be heard at times that are inconvenient to say the least. Like while you’re driving 70 mph down the interstate. Or at 2:30 AM.

Worse yet, they have times when they don’t want to talk to us. Maybe they’re sulking, maybe they’re tired, maybe they’re just feeling stubborn, but no matter the reason sometimes our fictional friends just clam up. Of course, we writers aren’t really allowed to deal with this the way we really should. If a friend or a loved one decides they don’t want to talk to you, it’s perfectly acceptable to get upset or hurt, but if a fictional character does? Suck it up. Doesn’t matter how much you miss them, doesn’t matter how much it hurts, because as far as the rest of the world is concerned, fictional people aren’t real.

We writers know better. Yes, I know how crazy that sounds.

We have strange obsessions with things having to do with writing and the written word.

I am an old school writer, pen and paper. Mostly this is because it keeps me from editing the idea to death, but the downside of this I am obsessed with notebooks and pens. In any room of my house there are at least 3-4 notebooks hidden somewhere: shoved onto bookshelves, mixed in with my sheet music, on the end table, under the couch, on the dresser. And yes, this does not endear me to my loving wife.

Of course, she also bought me a leather bound journal for Father’s Day. Thank you, my Love. 🙂

Then there’s my pens. Unlike notebooks, where I am a gourmand, with pens I am a gourmet. I buy and use one kind of pen and one kind only: Pentel RSVP Black Fine Tip. I believe I have at least 42 of them scattered around my house and my work, as well as at least one package of multicolored RSVPs for edits.

And yet every time I go to Target or Walmart or (oh god help me) Staples, I am drawn to the stationary aisle as though there’s a black hole there that only affects me. They’re a drug, I’m addicted.

And don’t get me started on our book collections

One day, the foundation of my house is going to throw up its figurative arms, say “gg”, and collapse under the sheer weight of the books inside it. This is SO much worse than the notebook thing, partly because I’ve been reading since I was 4 but writing only since I was 15, but mostly because my whole family are addicts of the written word. There isn’t a horizontal surface in my house that does not house at least one book. The closing of a local book store was a cause for tears, no joke. No book aisle can be simply walked past by my family.

Every author I know is like this. Our bookshelves are packed two rows deep and then more books are stacked in front of them, usually divided into “read”, “unread”, and “get to it one day”. And god help us if we discover a new author we love, especially a prolific one. Or a series that is out of print, that’s even worse.

Discount bins? $1 racks at local resale shops? Library book sales? They’re like rolling a wheelbarrow of crack out in front of a junkie. I could not tell you how many books I’ve purchased because “it’s only $1, it’s only $.50”. Shit I will never read. I bought a copy on the Quran in Arabic and a Latin Vulgate Bible. Why? They were pretty and I wanted to see if they would spontaneously combust if I put them next to each other on the shelf. It’s pathetic.

Mood = Creative Output

There is nothing, nothing more sad and pathetic than a stuck writer. I know, I’ve been there. It’s like being emotionally constipated. We are surly, moody, sulky, and generally unpleasant to be around.

If anything, being on a roll is worse.

Not for the writer, mind you. For us, being on a roll is like being in love: Cloud Nine. But just like being in love, the only person who can stand being around us is the object of our affection. To everyone else, we are vague, selfish, absorbed, and obsessed. I knocked out my first draft of The Curious Snowflake in less than two weeks, and my wife told me later I was impossible to live with, utterly somewhere else. The only time writers are worth being around are on good editing days, and even that’s a stretch.

Everybody else is character fodder.

My MMC in my WIP (male main character in my work-in-progress, get with the nomenclature) is part me, part my son, and is based physically on one of my employees. His mentor is a short version of an old college buddy. The villain is my old voice coach (actually a great guy).

This is how it works. Authors want to make characters who are actually people, so they end up being a pastiche of the people we actually know. Famous, best selling authors do this all the time. Don’t believe me? Read the section at the beginning of Stephen King’s On Writing where he talks about meeting his wife and then go back and read, say, ‘Salem’s Lot or The Stand. Yeah, there’s a little Tabby King in almost every FMC ol’ Steve’s ever written.

So don’t piss off your writer friends, or you might find yourself immortalized in their prose.

So yeah, we’re basically nucking futz

Obsessive. Selfish. Oblivious. Moody. Judgmental. Perhaps even a little schizo-affective. So why does the rest of the world put up with us writers? Because we are also are loving, inspiring, thoughtful, and (at the best times) a little bit amazing. Most important, we write these stories and ideas that touch other people in positive and even wonderful ways. For that, I think, the rest of the “normal” people should cut us nutty authors a little slack.

Virtues and Vices, Part 2: Goodness and Pride

Posted on by James C. Struck

The second pair of virtues and vices I wish to talk about are the ones associated with monotheism, goodness versus pride. When rewriting TCS I found this part to be the most difficult for me to edit, mostly because I was skirting very close to some rather controversial points of view, especially for a kid’s book.  But one cannot discuss the ideas of good and bad, let alone prideful morality, without touching on some ideas that people don’t really want to look at too closely.  So let’s move forward.

People don’t like and don’t want hard religions.  When I say “hard” I don’t mean challenging.  Challenging is fine because it lends a sense of moral superiority to one’s efforts, which many people like.  What I mean by hard is religions that push people out of their comfort zones.  When it comes to spirituality, we like our absolutes.  We like formulas and rituals.  We want to know that, if we do A, B, C, and D and avoid W, X, Y, and Z, we will win the kewpie doll.  We also want an endgame, so to speak, a final goal where, if we put in the required effort, we will be rewarded and not have to put the effort in anymore.

Why do we want our religions to be this way?  Simple: because life ISN’T this way.  Life is ambiguous, not absolute.  Life always challenges us, it never lets us rest for any significant amount of time.  Formulas do not work for life, because inevitably something comes along and knocks the formula out of whack. Because of this, every religion considers the world to be an impure, flawed, or corrupted place and describes its final reward as a place of peace, simplicity, and effortlessness.  Nowhere is this more true than in Western Monotheism (WM).  The rules and rituals are absolute, laid out by the Divine Itself.  The world is a horrible place that, at the End of Days, will be destroyed and made new.  The non-believers should be converted or ignored at best, at worst… well, you know, I’m sure.

Yet WM abounds with ambiguity, though it turns a blind eye to such inconsistencies.  Every moral precept of the 10 Commandments is broken in the Bible itself at one point or another.  Entire sections of moral code are ignored or explained away as “old Covenant” teachings.  Internal contradictions abound.  Yet believers everywhere ignore this, set their feet and square their shoulders, and say they have found the One True Path.  This is Pride.  Pride is when Goodness becomes a show, a form of posturing, when thought and experience are set aside in favor of surety and the support of a community who agrees with you.  Pride is what allows the leader of a religion founded by a wandering socialist carpenter to sit on a golden throne in a palace.

But what if Life is right?

Now, bear with me as we jump down this rabbit hole.  I am not saying right and wrong do not exist, they do and demonstrably so.  What I am saying it that right and wrong are human constructions that only exist based upon human preference, proclivity, instinct, and certain overarching aspects of existence.  Good is not created by God, but by us.  And that is perfectly and gloriously okay!  Killing is wrong, not because God carved that rule into a rock, but because we value our own existences and understand that others are just like us.  We would not wish to be killed, and others must feel the same, therefore killing another person is wrong under the majority of circumstances.  Adultery is wrong, not because the Bible says so, but because betrayal of trust hurts us emotionally and damages the fabric of our society.  Rape is wrong because it takes an act of love, trust and expression of Unity and turns it into an act of violation, selfishness, and domination.  Dishonesty is wrong because it damages the value of trust, which is necessary for social interaction to have any meaning.

Deep stuff to try to fit into a kid’s book, huh?

As I said, this is a touchy subject, and I’m pretty aware that it may cause me some conflict down the road, but I honestly feel that the idea of divine-dictated moral absolutes is one of the most damaging concepts in the history of humanity.  How many wars, how much conflict, how many atrocities have been committed because someone was able to justify away their actions based on a moral absolute?  Do you need a list? My goal in writing and publishing TCS is to plant a few tiny seeds of peace and joy and love in the hearts of young people and new families.  This is, for me, the most important of those seeds.

Virtues and Vices Part 1: Beauty and Vanity

Posted on by James C. Struck

Hello, and welcome to my #mondayblogs post.  I was inspired by my friend Galit Breen to post today about physical appearances and beauty, the difference between the two, and how that ties into my soon-to-be-published book.  Enjoy

Something new I added during my rewrite of The Curious Snowflake was an emphasis on what I call Virtues and Vices.  In TCS, the main character travels to all different parts of the Great Cloud in search of answers about life, and each shape of snowflake represents a different philosophy here on Earth.  The star-shaped flakes represent atheism, the needle-shaped flakes polytheism, and the pebble-shaped flakes monotheism.

Each life-philosophy has a particular virtue it prizes over all others.  Atheism, since it has no concept of an afterlife, prizes personal accomplishment, which in TCS I simplify into Beauty.  Monotheism, with its belief in single lifetimes, emphasizes living in accordance to divine laws, which I simplify into Goodness.  Polytheism, with its belief in reincarnation and Karma, emphasizes personal striving towards an ideal of spiritual perfection, which I simplify into Courage.  Each of these Virtues also has a corrupted form which comes into play when an individual places too much emphasis on the appearance of virtue rather than virtue itself.  Courage changes to Recklessness, Goodness into Pride, and Beauty into Vanity.  For this first part, I would like to talk about the last of these three.

We live in a society that places incredible emphasis on external appearances, especially for women, but teaches us almost nothing about the true nature of beauty.  Dress size, perfect hair, flawless makeup, chiseled jawline, washboard abs, pouty lips, these are not beauty and have nothing to do with beauty.  These are attractiveness.  These are nothing more than biological posturing, remnants of our animalistic past where finding a mate was all about passing on good genes and nothing more.  Physical attractiveness is simply a billboard for your DNA.  Strong, even teeth, glossy thick hair, flat stomachs, good musculature, these are indicative of a healthy lifestyle, which promotes you as a good hunter or smart gatherer.  Wide hips and full breasts in women; muscular arms and broad chest and shoulders in men; long legs, upright posture, and clear eyes in both sexes; these are indicators of good genetic material and nothing more.  They are not beauty, they are vanity, pure and simple.

Beauty is something completely different.

Beauty is an indicator of who you are, not how you appear.  A Beautiful person is someone who is on the path to who they truly wish to be and advertises it to the world with neither shame nor hesitation.  Think of a time in your life when you were around someone who was truly on a path forward to their dreams.  What was that person like?  Didn’t they seem to glow, to have an almost magnetic field around them?  Didn’t you feel yourself drawn to them, regardless of their appearance or their gender?  That is Beauty.

Think now about the great souls who have populated this world over the last century or so.  Think of a Mahatma Gandhi, a Mother Teresa, a Dalai Lama.  Were these physically attractive people?  Lord, no, but they were and are Beautiful people.  Think of someone who truly inspired you at some point in your life.  For me it was an old college voice coach who was about as wide as he was tall, but I think back about Jim Parks and he is one of the most Beautiful people in my personal experience.

As I said in my previous blog post here, my goal with TCS is to show a new way of thinking about the world, one sharable with all ages and all generations.  This shift towards a healthier perspective on Beauty is one part of that.